Welcome!

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My name is Erin and this is where I write and share from my heart with the desire to be transparent and in turn magnify Daddy-God. It is a place where I share about the things that…stir me up, challenge my pride, soften my heart, help me find meaning and ultimately healing and wholeness.

Daddy God continues to cultivate a spirit of intimacy, transparency and vulnerability in me through my personal journey.

I want to share my shortcomings and growth as a woman…learning how to wait-well, keep my heart state surrendered and my God-given purpose intact. I share my struggles, convictions and the victories inbetween!

My desire…is that the contents of this website – will help you relate, accept these truths, accept that you are not alone and accept that you matter. 

You – finding your way here…is no accident!

I sincerely pray that Christ Jesus’ beauty and saving power shines through every crack this vessel humbly – allows Him to use for His purpose!

~ A little background about me ~

I am married to a loving and hard-working man of God! I am also the mother of 3 teenagers. We also have 2 dogs. We live in a small town in southern Colorado.

I was born with numerous medical conditions. Many of which are rare or “invisible” (internal by nature). But my family, relatives and friends in general weren’t able to fully understand what I was born-struggling with. I grew up more blessed than most…in the sense… that I grew up with both parents committed to each other, human and dealing with their own skeletons, fears and such – yes. But they were determined to surrender and sacrifice more in each season in order to be an increasingly more-accurate reflection of Jesus…even as they were faced with and struggled with many things Satan designed to ruin their callings Daddy God created them with (thus mine and my brother’s and on down the generations).

As I approached my teenage years it became apparent that the innocently misunderstood life I lived (the real one – on the inside) had caused Satan to pray on my vulnerabilities and encouraged my creation of fear, unhealthy mindsets and eventually destructive addictions resulting in a profoundly deep lacking in my soul.

I eventually met my husband,quickly began to create a family and began the same journey…to be more like Jesus…as each broken piece of me…was and continues to be brought into the light… reshaped and mended. 

One thing that was profound to me a year or so back was this. The process the Japanese use when taking broken pottery and filling the cracks with precious-refined gold…causing it to become a unique testimony to it’s story and the compassion of the mender. It is called “Kintsugi.” That is the image Daddy-God gave me in His beautifully-mysterious and unconditional grace! 

You can learn more about my struggles and developing testimony by selecting the “Convictions”, “Hope”,”Health” or “Family Updates” categories of this blog.

Some of my interests are in: biology, genetics, plant-based nutrition, music, nature, photography, creating unrefined and organic bath/spa products, advocacy for those with rare illness (and anyone who is human and struggles with any part of this earthly side life)!


I try to reflect, refocus & rely on God when storms come and when life is calm. It is not always easy. At times, it feels and looks impossible…but God!

HE is why I continue to share my struggles, victories & my imperfect walk with Him!


A few quotes I believe:

“Visit many books, but live in the Bible”

– C. H. Spurgeon

“The way to gain a good reputation is to endeavor to be what you desire to appear.”

– Socrates

“When we give Daddy-God our mess, completely…He will turn it into His message! He is the master potter! He alone can turn our worthless ashes into indescribable beauty!”

– Erin Marie McDowell


“Whenever, though, they turn to face God as Moses did, God removes the veil and there they are—face-to-face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We’re free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him.” 2 Corinthians 3:16-18


“Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.”

Romans 8:26-28


 But whoever has doubts is condemned if he eats, because the eating is not from faith. For whatever does not proceed from faith is sin.”

Romans 14:23

37 Responses to

  1. Your testimony shines for Jesus. We love you Erin

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  2. Hey Erin thanks for your support. Please let me know if you want me to do a blog post about anything specific

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  3. Well this is a site I’ll look forward to following! Thank you for coming by and giving me a read! 🙂

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  4. Maggie Ingram says:

    Erin, you have a beautiful gift of writing and expressing yourself!! What an encouragement you are!! I look forward to following your blog and I will pray for you!! 😍😍

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  5. Erin Marie says:

    I plan on sharing soon. I am just learning about my genetic issues. And my oldest son’s conditions have been just as confusing to us and psychiatrists. I was actually planning on writing about it all soon.

    Thank you so much for showing your interest and concern.

    You don’t know how much it means to me. :’-)

    I live in Golden, CO. My husband was station in Ft. Bragg in 1996/7 I think…Paratrooper for US Army. I alwats wanted to visit that part of the states. 🙂

    TYSM for the compliment and encouragement! ♡♡♡

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  6. Carolyn Dotts says:

    I found you through your comment to my post on First 5. I’m so encouraged by your transparency on your blog. Where do you live? I’m a retired special Ed teacher in NC, and I was interested in your genetic condition and your son’s special needs. Do you mind to share?

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    • Erin Marie says:

      I plan on sharing soon. I am just learning about my genetic issues. And my oldest son’s conditions have been just as confusing to us and psychiatrists. I was actually planning on writing about it all soon.

      Thank you so much for showing your interest and concern.

      You don’t know how much it means to me. :’-)

      I live in Golden, CO. My husband was station in Ft. Bragg in 1996/7 I think…Paratrooper for US Army. I alwats wanted to visit that part of the states. 🙂

      TYSM for the compliment and encouragement! ♡♡♡

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    • Erin Marie says:

      Holler any time! ❤

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    • Erin Marie says:

      You can “Follow” my posts…by clicking the “Follow Me” button below…to catch posts when I write about my health, my son’s psychiatric conditions, and more.

      But, you are not obligated in any way. 🙂 ❤

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    • Erin Marie says:

      I apologize for not replying sooner. I kept debating to answer in a comment or blog post. Go to my contact page and email me with your email address. I’d love to chat. ❤

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  7. Chelsea Snowden says:

    Thank you for praying over my situation this morning on Proverbs 31. I will pray for your family as well. I work with special needs kids & families as a home health nurse. ❤️ You, sister!

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  8. Margaret Harmon says:

    Teddy your wife is very talented. You have a prize. Glad we have gotten in contact again, Excellent writing

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    • Erin Marie says:

      Hi! Teddy told me about Chris & you connecting w/him this week! He has talked about you both so much over the last 15 years. I always prayed he would find you guys again.

      I’m so flattered you checked my site out! 😀

      Thank you so much for the compliment! ❤

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  9. Looking forward to getting your address & I totally understand I’m so glad I had a chance to see you at church briefly & hug not knowing you’d be moving! Anyway thanks for your Loving Heart!

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  10. Vickie says:

    Thank you you’re always in my h thoughts & prayers! Wish to have spent a day with you! I had no idea you had 2 sons & 1 daughter. You look so young & don’t even look like you had any children. Keep up all good work! Im happy for you we can communicate like this! Love you ((HUG HUG)) 💐 Erin when is your Birthday? Let me know oh & your new address if you don’t mind! Have A Blessed Day!

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    • Erin Marie says:

      It was a very insane time. I wish we could have, as well. ♡

      Yes. I am a mamma of 3. I lost about 80 lbs. I worked very hard at it. Thank you for the compliment! 🙂

      My birthday is December 16th.

      I’ll email you my mailing address.

      Talk to you soon! ♡

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      • Anonymous says:

        Thanks I completely understand & it was meant for us to meet it was God ordained & His Blessings! I look forward to get your address & a well job done for all your very hard work to loose 80 lbs! Wow 😉

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  11. in567 says:

    Thanks so much for taking the time to peruse through my blog. That’s very nice of ya to leave a comment too as well. Appreciate it. I’ll definitely swing by more often to here because it sure is lovely!

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  12. Jodi says:

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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    • Erin Marie says:

      Hi Love!!! Miss you too! With our current situation… Blog comments & occasional emails is how I can communicate. SO glad you subscribe & read my blog posts! I think of & pray over you daily! Love you so much!!!💖💋

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  13. Anonymous says:

    YA KNOW WE LOVE YA TO PIECES…..

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  14. MJ says:

    This was my first time to your website. I had no idea you had a business. I pray God bless it and you in all that you do. He opens the doors for you and He is your rear guard. He goes before you and prepared the way for you. His Grace is sufficient for you. Love ya, MJ

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  15. teddy mcdowell says:

    Love u perfect

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  16. Mark says:

    Excellent!

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  17. Alicia says:

    ❤️❤️❤️ stay strong!

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  18. Amber Jean says:

    ❤ Thank you!

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